I know I've been kinda scarce

[fufaraw]

I'm sorry I haven't been around much. Truth is, I've been feeling pretty crappy for several weeks, now, and haven't felt up to engaging. The neighbors all think I'm a standoffish bitch (well...yeah. Little bit), but I haven't felt like being really present here, either. The lack of spoons came on slowly--so sneakily I didn't notice until the change was really apparent. Along with the pain and the eye issues, my blood sugar has sneaked up a mildly alarming level, so I'm making some lifestyle changes and hoping that will make the necessary difference.

Meanwhile, I'm reading, nodding, and cheering or sympathizing, my friends. Those reactions have just failed to materialize by keyboard, and I'm sorry. I'm working on it.

Comments

[stir-of-echoes.livejournal.com]

*smishes you*

[anniespinkhouse.livejournal.com]

I totally get you ((hugs) Gradual creep is so hard to detect in yourself - I imagine its probably closer to the entire cutlery drawer being missing since you are generally so quiet about it all. Take the time that you need and to hell with the neighbours thinking you're stand offish - can't they just be grateful that you're not up in their business? xx

[kalliel]

<33333333333333333333333333, love!!!

(Also, 'eye can't do that dave' is an amazing tag.)

[matchboximpala.livejournal.com]

Take care of yourself!

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

There's no reason to say sorry, not a single one! We all go through those kinds of times and when we do we know that this place will be here afterwards *hugs and loves you*

[aerynsun5.livejournal.com]

♥♥♥

I've been OK healthwise, but I haven't felt fannish at all since VanCon. Most days I haven even signed on to LJ. Sorry I wasn't here to give you some hugs.

[fufaraw]

Oh no, hon! Did VanCon kill your fannish? What happened?

[aerynsun5.livejournal.com]

Dunno. Still OK with show, just haven't felt up to interacting for some reason. Thought about not signing up for next year, but I got a seat 3 seats closer to the aisle, Jensen side. Also, Kim and Briana were so fabulous, I could hardly stand it. Just the rest of life, maybe.

I'm sorta getting back into things. Being pretty irritated with my neighbor, though, for reasons too lengthy to go into. But here's a minor one: do you remember my big deodar cedar in front, with the split trunk, one side of which swoops up? He's always putting his kids up there, as well as other kids, without asking. I don't want them up there. I don't have to have a reason.

He also asked if his live-in babysitter can park in the alley right behind my garage "when she needs to unload something." Told him occasionally that was OK, but there are lots of pot holes back there and it gets really muddy in the winter, so if she parks there a lot, it will make it worse. He deflected and said a neighbor further up might put in some gravel. Now, she parks there almost daily, and because he now puts his trash cans by his fence, she is forced to park even further out, and more than half her car is blocking my garage. Now, mind you, I can slip around to get in and out, but it still pisses me off. If my garage door worked, it probably wouldn't be an issue, unless she parked further back, then I really couldn't get out.

So, those are two stupidly minor things that are irritating me. Don't judge me. :)

[fufaraw]

Oh, I'm not judging. In your place I'd be out there with fencing and trebouchets, so I think you're doing pretty good. I was just afraid Creation had done something boneheaded to piss you off, or something.

[aerynsun5.livejournal.com]

No, not really, just a couple of people got on my nerves a little, and I had a thing with Jensen in the autograph line that I thought was kinda funny, but now I'm worried that he thought I was being a bitch. I wasn't, of course, and though I tell people every day how funny I am, strangers don't always get me.