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It's been just under a week since our cruise ended. We got off on Saturday morning, but it seems so much further away. It seems like a lifetime since we walked the halls of the Koningsdam, or strolled through Juneau, Skagway and Ketchikan. Since I stood looking up at the Mendenhall glacier, stretched between the impossibly large peaks of Bullard and McGinnis Mountains and felt a mix of awe and vertigo. It was like a cathedral to nature, and we'd all come to witness and worship. I felt something shift inside my chest and head. I would forever be the person I'd been before Alaska, and the one post Alaska. The whale watching with the whale who obliged us with a fluke shot was not the consolation prise.

Or the White Pass train in Skagway, which was a monument to man's stubbornness and ingenuity, and breathtaking in it's own way. I took a deep breath of the mountain air and stepped out to the platform to watch nature rush by beneath my feet. I'm not a heights person, and we were about 2,000 feet up, winding along the side of the mountain. And I looked down the mountain at the sheer drop while the train swayed, and it was amazing. Soon after, we passed into Canada, and reached the summit of the White Pass, snow still piled along the sides of the tracks. And I remember thinking "Is this really my life? Am I really a person who is in Alaska?

And then the tour we weren't meant to do in Ketchikan. While we were supposed to be eating our weight in crabs, we chose to just do our own thing. We'd have to have to killed ourselves to make the crab feast, since the boat docked late, so we just didn't. Instead, we took the sketchy cash-only tour, breaking every safe tourism rule in existence. And we saw such beautiful things. The waterfall, the taste of salmon berries. The totem poles and another ode to mankind's ingenuity, the Salmon Ladder that allows salmon to safely traverse upstream to spawn. It was amazing, and we nearly missed it.

And the ship! I love that ship. We had so many great moments. Some amazing meals, a decent massage, some time in the thermal spa. And of course, our vow renewal, which was amazing in a different way. After 26 years, I got to walk down the aisle and recite some very beautiful vows to the love of my life. They were the vows that are standard for Holland America, but they were perfect. Relaxing on the balcony and watching the waves and scenery slip by. So many enormous mountains raising to craggy, snow covered peaks, and the Dawes glacier right off our ship, where we sat with our hot chocolate (in Holland America mugs) and watched in wonder at another beautiful glacier. And of course, our amazing suite, which was opulent and a comfortable home for 7 days.

And of course, the most important thing, the staff. The hard working steward, Yusuf and Dov, the waiters who remembered our names and were happy to stop and talk with us for a few minutes, checking on on how we were enjoying our cruise. And of course, our concierges Sheryl and especially Rachel. I wanted to keep Rachel, so that she could sort out my life for me. She felt comfortable enough to tell us about her daughter, and made sure we got where we needed to be as first time cruisers. She walked us onto the ship, and went over everything that we had planned, and let us know what came with the suite. It was a little daunting. And then, she walked us to the gangplank for the first port in Juneau, so we'd know where to find it. And she walked us to our vow renewal, and took my camera to take so many pictures and videos, like the one linked above of our vows.

And now I'm back in the land of cardiac appointments and so many patients needing sooner appts, and no way to schedule them. It barely feels real, like a wonderful dream, but it happened and it mattered.

And now I can't wait for our California Coast cruise. It's 18months away, and I know it won't have the same magic as Alaska, but I'm hoping it'll have it's own magic. We're going so many new places. Disneyland (The Happiest Place on Earth) and San Diego. And then back on the Koningsdam for another amazing cruise with interesting ports. Ensenada, Mexico, Santa Barbara, and the jewel, two days in San Francisco. I've always wanted to go to San Francisco. And maybe we'll do a quick tour around Los Angeles before we head up to Disneyland. I'd like to see the La Brea Tar pits, and maybe the Hollywood sign. I don't really need much more than that in LA, I don't think. I wouldn't mind doing a studio tour, but I don't need to. I'd rather save my knees for Disneyland and Disney's California Adventure and San Diego and San Francisco. It will be the week after daylight savings ends, so we'll probably get to see everything at night, which will be cool.

I've got an appointment in July to see an Ortho about said knees. They won't do knee replacement on anyone over a BMI of 40, so I'm hoping some cortisone shots and maybe some gel cartilege could be slipped in, because even at my skinniest, my BMI was still 42.

So, we'll see what kind of shape I'm in come November of next year. If I need to, I'll rent a scooter for Disney and also in the San Diego Zoo. I plan to uber in the cities to minimize walking, so I think I'll be okay.

I might come home with my knees fucked up again, but it'll be worth it, just like it was this time.

I do need them to settle down, because in 2 weeks, we have our company picnic, and I do want to go, and I'd rather not need a cane. Last year, it was fun, though hot as balls. This year, the temp is supposed to be 81, which is still warmer than I'd like, but I'll manage. I need to look for my work ID so I can wear it and look official. Of course, it's an ID that states my old job, but I'm not willing to go get a new one done, since that would mean driving to the hospital in the city.

Got work today, then game tonight, a long postponed one. It should be fairly short since they're close to the final battle, but it was just enough that we couldn't get it in last session. Then tomorrow shall be Marchen. Sunday, we may go out to brunch to celebrate Jess' birthday. We did have Indian food delivered last night and cupcakes, but they deserve all the celebrations.

In that time, I'd like to start moving stuff into our storage unit. I took a half day off to spend mostly with Jess, but I did go over to the storage unit and get my keys. I did not realize when I rented it that it's in a row of two tier units. They're each about 3.5 feet high, and ours is on the top, which is going to suck, since we're going to have to lift our stuff into it. Not ideal, but we'll work with it.

After I got back, we watched a youtube video ranking all the rides in Disneyland and Disney's California Adventure. It was actually really useful, and knocked a few rides I had been considering out of the list. What I've currently got is 8-10 rides in Disneyland and 6-8 in California Adventure.

I have a few non-negotiable ones, like Indiana Jones and the Matterhorn. I'm also thinking about Space Mountain. It's set up slightly differently than the one in Florida, which we didn't do because all accounts said it's difficult to get out of. This has a different car, which is not as bad, so I think I'd like to try it. And of course, Pirates of the Caribbean and Haunted Mansion and the former Splash Mountain (Tiana's Bayou Adventure) I know we did them in Disney World, but these are the OGs. And at California Adventure I must do the Incredicoaster and the Guardians of the Galaxy Mission Breakout. I know Jess loves them a good drop tower, and having survived the Tower of Terror in Disney, I'm game for it.

And now, I shall step out of vacation planning and reminiscing mode and get myself ready for work. Everyone have a most excellent Friday!

Not sure I care about...

May. 21st, 2026 02:07 pm
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Either of the WIPs I've got kicking around this month.(Which I know, if you're blocked right now, seems like an annoying #blessed humblebrag, I'm sure, but it's just...it seems like a fine line between "Engagingly surreal' and "!960s sitcom gimmick," Even though I loved some of those shows, I know which one we're supposed to aim for. And, yes, I went to class, so, yes, I've absolutely written and even submitted work that I did not love with every fiber of my being...it kind of makes the rejection part easier to bear, if not finishing the work.When it comes to the actual creation, though, it only works if I'm a*little* in love, I think.

Not sure I care about posting about Marlee Matlin on the West Wing, either, even if that is the kind of hypothetical posting That made me think about keeping up a blog in the first place...but, since I've written that so much in my head, maybe I feel like I don't really have to type it?(Although I will say that the most dedicated campaign managers I've ever met refrain from EVER acknowledging their candidate as a "schmuck" ever and I do think that the first time anyone there met her, smart or not, right-thinking or not, it would still be like "So, have you ALWAyS been deaf? How much hearing do you still have? Do you miss it? Must be handy during the rallies...kidding."(My Little Miss Diligent side did research and took notes because that's what she lives for, but I see it all in blue ink and shrug.)
Oh! I can spell my name in sign language...shit, wait a second."(Not that I'm totally sure myself that "No big deal!1" is really the card to play...it wouldn't go like that,anyway.)
On kind of a related note, Actual Mom has taken a training on "Caregiver Boundaries" which is a useful *thought* but I can't really imagine treating my home like a big old jobsite.
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It's Thursday, according to my computer. I'm still all screwed up on days since getting back. It's a short week, but somehow it feels like it should be Friday.

And seeing as it is now 5/21, I want to wish a very happy birthday to my beloved spouse, [personal profile] nilchance . I hope you had an amazing birthday cruise, and I love you so much. The good Indian food shall be yours today. *hug*

It was another very busy day at work. I spent most of it checking appointments for the one coworker. There weren't as many issues as previously, but there still were some. Apparently they'd gotten WAY behind on checking, as I was doing ones for the beginning of April all the way up to current. IT took me til about 2pm, but I got us up to date. In between, I was calling patients, trying to fill in some slots.

The Columbia Cardiac MRI template hasn't been updated to the new diagnoses yet, so I have been stubbornly unable to work on them. With June coming in 2 weeks, I've had to just start blocking off appointments to be moved when I'm actually able to schedule them.

So I dod that for a while, too. I got scheduled for the first half of June, and I'll work some more on it today as well. For someone who was supposed to be on the phone part time, I'm not spending much time answering calls. Once in a while, maybe 5-9 calls per day? It's not much.

My boss has told me how much they missed me while I was away. Things just weren't getting done. (I can tell!)

There's a meeting next week about the cardiac slots in Columbia. I have no idea if I need to attend, but I trust if not, I'll get all the details. It would be nice if they have me there, since the entirety of the scheduling rests on my shoulders. I know a lot of it would be above my paygrade, but some of it might be useful.

The apartments are getting rid of our storage units, just after we started putting things in there. I've got to go over to the Extra Storage place and get the key to our new unit. We rented a small site for suitcases, winter clothes, and holiday decor. I think I can fit most of that in there. We'll see. But since it's doubtful that I'll need a suitcase til next November, I'm going to just store them rather than having them in the closet. It should be helpful. I may need to get some stacking boxes for the clothes to minimize the amount of space they'll take. That will also clear up some closet space. I'll keep a handful of the regular leggings out, but the fleece ones are going in the storage. I'm going to be wearing shorts for the next 5 months.

Work should be a little less busy tomorrow. I'll see what I have to do, but I might mostly be taking it easy. I'm still recovering from the cruise. I'm functional, but still tired, and with a hint of jetlag.

My knees have improved a bit since returning. It no longer hurts just to stand or walk all the time. Once in a while, they'll give me a little jabbing pain, but it's not constant anymore. We were averaging about 3 miles of walking a day, mostly on uneven streets, but also sometimes on a rocking ship. None of that was good for me, apparently. I've made an appointment to get them looked at, but since the ortho won't do joint replacement on anyone over a BMI of 40, I don't know how much they can do.

If I have to, next year, I'll rent a scooter for Disneyland.

I've been looking at my options. It seems like if we want a direct flight, we're going to have to fly into LAX, and uber or train up to Anaheim. We also can't fly out of our home airport, instead going down to Regan or Dulles airports. I'm not averse to that, but it'll make coming home a little bit of a pain, since we'll be driving home in the dark. Or I suppose I could get a ride home. God knows, the dude who has driven us would be thrilled, since he lives down that way. That might be the better option.

Right now, of course, the pricing I'm doing is for this November, as the airline calendars only go out so far. Hopefully, next year, it's a wee bit cheaper.

I'm also pricing out hotels for Disneyland and San Diego. Needless to say, San Diego is a lot cheaper. Also has better rated hotels.

Between park tickets and hotel, we're looking at about $1,200 for three days, two nights. Which does not include food and Ubers while we're there. The other option would be to do the club level at one of the Disney hotels and pay more, but get some food options. I'm leaning towards the Marriott Courtyard, which has decent ratings. I was looking at two others, but one had a few shitty youtube reviews about being dirty and uncomfortable, and the other has exterior entry. To me, that's a motel, not a hotel. It gets amazing reviews, but I'm not comfortable with exterior corridors as a woman and a non binary person.

For San Diego, I'm looking at a hotel on the Pacific Beach, where I could walk out in the morning and touch the Pacific Ocean. I sailed in it, but I'd like to put my feet in it as well.

I'm so excited to have another vacation to plan. I've already planned what needs to be planned on the ship, so now it's just figuring out what to see and do in Disneyland/Grand California Adventure, San Diego and San Francisco. SO many youtube videos to watch.

I was slightly worried about Disneyland and how fat friendly it was, but thanks to the magic of youtube, I'm 95% sure that I'll fit into every ride I want to do. Or at least this dude who looked about my size fit easily. The only ones that might be tight, I don't want to do. It looks like California Adventure has more rides I'd like to do (9-10), so that'll probably be first day. Then Disneyland the next day, since that only has about 5-6 rides that I want to do. I probably won't get to ride everything I want to, but I'll get as many as I can. If I can't do the legacy rides like Haunted Mansion or Pirates of the Caribbean or Jungle Cruise, I'll be okay, since I rode them in Orlando. But the Incredicoaster and Guardians of the Galaxy Mission Breakout are definitely on the list. Maybe the Matterhorn.

San Francisco, I'm looking at all the videos, trying to see where to go in Chinatown for the best Dim Sum. Our excursions are both over by 1pm, so one day I definitely want to go to Chinatown, especially since we didn't make it to the one in Vancouver. We'll have two full days there, so I plan to see some sights and do some things in the city. I wonder if we'll sail under the Golden Gate Bridge. Seems like we might. That'll be super exciting. I'll definitely be on the verandah taking pictures.

Then again, that's the theme of our vacations. Lots of pictures. I wonder which crew we'll make friends with this time? I know they probably won't be the same people, since crew only work 8mo contracts at a time. But maybe. I would be so excited if Rachel is there as concierge. We're not Pinnacle Suite for this, but we are still Neptune, so we'll get the concierge and the lounge.

I know it's still 18mo away, but I'm so excited to get to do everything. It's funny, I'm not fond of Disney as a company right now. They've fucked over their people, the LGBT community, and their fans, but I still love the parks. I am looking forward to the Happiest Place on Earth.

I'm wondering if I could get a car service to take us around LA a touch, then drive us to Anaheim. I'd like to see the Hollywood sign, and maybe the La Brea Tar Pits, maybs past the Chinese Theater. I'd really like to see the Tar Pits. I love dinosaurs, and that could be fun, and mean that we'll get to our hotel when our room would be ready, since we're coming in early in the morning. GoodleMaps says it's only about 40 minutes to Anaheim, so we'd be getting there way before the hotel is ready for us.

We'll see. Its possible by next year, the nonstop flight times will have changed and that won't be an issue. The weather looks like it could be good, ranging from 80 degrees in Ensenada, Mexico to about 64 in San Francisco. San Fran does get 5 days of rain in November, so we may be taking ponchos, but that's fine. We'll be good no matter what.

Right now, the plan is for it to be 11/9/2027-11/22/2027. 2 days in Disney, train to San Diego, two full days there, and then a 7 day cruise. Back to San Diego for 1 day, and then home.

Sorry, yet again, you're going to be getting a lot of vacation babble. I use my journal to sort out my thoughts and right now my thoughts are on plotting and planning this vacation.

But for now, I will hop off and maybe grab a shower. Everyone have an amazing Thursday!
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Therapy seems to be getting harder. Which is good, because that means we're getting to the blackberry-like roots of some of my issues. A few years ago if you'd told me I was a perfectionist with control issues, I would have laughed in your face. (The first time I mentioned this revelation to the Stroppy One, he said, "You didn't realize this about yourself because you were comparing yourself to me. Of course you didn't think you were a perfectionist with control issues". Which, okay, he's got a point.)

My parents loved/still love me, and did the best they could. That doesn't change the fact that, as per yesterday's very helpful, very hard therapy session, I didn't really have a childhood after about age five. That I spent the rest of my "childhood" and adolescence being an adult and being a "good kid" so I wasn't a bother and was worthy of attention. That I parented up. Therapy was so hard yesterday that I tapped out of work for a few hours so I could cry everything out of my system.

So. Circling back to that Fall Out Boy lyric that's the title of this post? I've been thinking of getting it as a tattoo for a few years. Last night, while telling the Stroppy One about some of the things from therapy, I mentioned that the urge to get that tattoo increases with every week. He sighed, then said the unexpected of "Where do you think you'll place it?" Unexpected because he's been against me getting this tattoo since I thought of it, but even he sees the cathartic value of it for me. My Council of Advisors are split on if I should get it, but I'm giving it serious thought.

Hey, did you know that sometimes, if you've had the Brain Raccoons since childhood, you fall into thinking perfectionism is a substitution for hope? Wow did that statement hit me between the eyes. My therapist is awesome, but doesn't pull any punches.
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It's another hot day, with a bit of rain at the end to send us back into the 60's for a few days. I'm looking forward to that rain.

Yesterday was super busy. By the time I got in, I had 2,021 emails waiting for me. Most got wholesale deleted, and it still took me an hour to comb through them and make sure there wasn't something I was missing. After that, I worked on some callbacks and then settled in to work on checking the one coworkers appointments. Found a few errors, but less than they were making, so that's good.

That honestly was most of my day. The people who were checking got about four weeks behind, so I am swooping in to save the day. I'll have some more to work on today, but we're up to 5/7 and one of my coworkers is working from the other end and is working on the 14th, so we'll get caught up in no time.

I did some other stuff as well, but nothing deeply exciting. It was a nice way to ease back into work. Maybe 10-12 calls (three in, 7-9 calls out. I appreciated that.

I also worked on eating real food when no one is bringing it to you. I had a roast beef sandwich and a miso soup, plus some cheese and berries to nibble. Then at lunch, I had a Yellowstone meatloaf meal, which wasn't bad. After that, I ate way too many Ketchup chips from Vancouver. Ketchup Pringles no less. Those fuckers are addictive.

I also made Yoda's food and sealed it into the little bags. As usual, I forgot to put in the salmon oil and calcium powder, so I'll have to add that individually. He loves the food I make him, which is kind of gratifying. Goat (or lamb), chicken giblets and chicken liver seems to be the winning combination. It smells revolting, but the doggo like is. I boil for 2-3 hours til tender, and then pull all the bones and meat. Then I add veggies (either green beans & carrots, sweet potato or butternut squash) and a grain, either brown rice or rolled oats and cook until done. Then I add the meat in, crumbling the liver, which helps to make a thick gravy. It usually makes 8-11 meals, so I'm good for a few days until I have to do it again. Fortunately, I can start it at 7am-ish and then during my 10am break, I pull the meat, leaving a nice broth, and add the veggies and grain. I'll check it after about an hour, and usually will turn it off to sit until the end of the day when I will use my vacuum sealer and make little baggies weighing about 8 ounces. They go in the freezer, and we'll pull them out the night before to defrost in the fridge.

In the evening, I had mixed fajitas (have some left over for breakfast today), and made an appointment with an Orthopedist for my knees. I had to check a box that said I understand that I'm too fat for joint replacement, which gives me high hopes for the appointment, boy howdy.

It sucks, but maybe a steroid shot would help. I don't feel like it's bone on bone, it just hurts off and on, especially when I overdo it like I did this trip. I haven't been able to go out with Yoda at lunch or dinner because of the pain. Jess has had to walk him solo.

Today, I'll finish checking the appointments, and then maybe take some calls, maybe make some calls, we'll see what the day brings and if my coworker is here today. She was on PTO yesterday so we'll see.

One thing I've noticed since coming back, Alaska's air quality is far superior to Baltimore's. I barely used my inhaler on vacation, even with the cooler weather. Part of it might have been adrenaline from seeing things and doing things, but still, even on the boat, I was fine. It was very nice for a change. Aside from using the cane to spare my knees (semi-successful.) In the case of the knees, that was definitely a combination of pure stubbornness and adrenaline, because they really hurt now, and are impeding me from doing things. Topical weed cream has helped a lot, though.

We were watching videos last night about San Diego, and they mentioned that it's only 92 miles from Disneyland. That had me checking out my PTO situation. In 18 months, I should have plenty of PTO to take an extra couple of days to visit the happiest place on earth.

As it stands now, we'll leave on the 11/8, and fly into LAX, rent a car and drive to Anaheim. The 9th and 10th shall be Disneyland and Disney's California Adventure. Then we'll either drive or take the train to San Diego, where if we used it, we'll turn in the car, and explore via uber, since a lot of the areas we wish to go are in the city with limited parking. We'll have 1/2 a day on the 11th and all day of the 12th to explore San Diego. On the 13th we board the Koningsdam for a seven night cruise. On the 14th we're in Ensenada, Mexico, the 15th is a sea day, then the 16th and 17th are San Francisco. On day one of San Fran, we're doing the Muir woods excursion. On the second day, it's off to the Japanese Tea Gardens. Of course, after the excursions, we'll have plenty of time to explore the city via hop on hop off bus. (Chants "Chinatown, Chinatown!") The 18th is a day at sea, then we hit Santa Barbara, where we have a whale watching tour. After that, it's bakc to San Diego on the 20th. We'll have all day to explore, and then we'll fly out on 11/22.

I am so excited about going to Disneyland. I mean, I was excited about San Diego, going on the ship, and seeing San Francisco, but throw in Disney, and I'm over the moon. I'm aware that they've done a lot of questionable things, but goddamn, I love me some Disney. And it's the one theme park that I can be certain that I'll fit on pretty much all the rides.

I have so much to plan! All the videos must be watched and our plan of attack shall be plotted to within an inch of it's life. One day in San Diego shall definitely be the zoo, and maybe the Museum of Us, since they're both in the Balboa Park area. I'd like to check out either Pacific beach or La Jolla beach and dip a toe in the Pacific ocean, just to say I did. Little Italy and old town look nice for food and souvenirs. I dont' know much about Santa Barbara, but it's a really short port visit, so we'll do whale watching and maybe a souvenir or two. I know nothing about Ensenada, but there will definitely be shopping. And San Fran, I'll need to research the hell out of. Disneyland too. I know it'll be a whirlwind tour, but that's about all I can manage with limited PTO. As it stands, I'll have 8 PTO days left when you consider both Confab and this vacation.

We figure the dog can go to daycare while we're away. My sister should be able to manage him up and down the stairs once a day. She can drop him at 7, and pick him up at 6pm. On the weekends, we'll see if any of the daycare workers would like to make extra walking him two or three times/day.

I had a little trouble getting to sleep last night, so excited about the vacation that's still 18mo away, and of course, the planning. I do love to plan.

And on that note, it's time for a video or two and to grab a shower. Everyone have a wonderful Wednesday! We're halfway there!
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Since i like American High Potential so much, I've also been watching dubbed versions of the French series(I'd watch subtitles, but my French is like " Yes. No. Cookie. Chicken..." There are words I can pick out(Spanish is not *fully* useless there, but anyway.) Mostly, what I notice is that to be French- hot, people seem to wear less make-up, and it's okay, maybe they even like it, if you skip that nose job.
But season 3 or 4(I'm not sure which) is building up to a different sort of climax(pun fully intended) as the genius single-mom character Morgane has done some bedhopping--a fling with a colleague, comforting her ex, I think, and a romp with a local gang-banger(On different episodes, but still) The next episode is that Morgane got pregnant and has to figure which guy is the father.

Bunnies!

May. 19th, 2026 06:24 pm
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It's been a while since I posted any bunny content.

I think it's fair to say that these bunnies are ridiculously spoiled, and we have finally realised that our living room has finally been given over to the two little ratbags.  Their toys and enrichment items have taken over the room, and we have accepted that floor space is a thing of the past in our house.

At least we still have the couch ... for now!


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Hello and good morning! We’re back to our normally scheduled bullshit today, as it is sadly time to get back to real life.

I'm oddly okay with it. I went, I had an outstanding time, but as the subject line says all good things must come to an end. I've missed chatting with my friends at work, so it'll be nice to talk to them. I texted them, but that's not the same. It's difficult to send long texts. Fingers get tired after a while on the phone. I need a full sized keyboard to fully convey my feelings.

Yesterday was entirely spent relaxing and ordering food. Our refrigerator door kindly opened at some time during the week, so everything had to go. Fortunately Mounjaro is stable to 21 days without a problem, so that was fine. I need to take my shot today. I'm going to start out with the 7.5mg again, since it's been like 2 weeks without it. The door is now taped shut. It's a pain in the ass, but if it's not going to stick, it can go in the naughty corner. I'll call maintenance eventually. Maybe when Yoda's going to be in day care for a day or two. First, the fridge needs to be scrubbed off, since we've had a couple of spills.

First thing in the morning, I went to go pick up Yoda. He was very excited and yelled at me a lot. Then he cried at being put in the back seat and belted in. He wanted to be close to me, but I needed to drive, so he needed to stay where he was safe.

Then we got home for him to yell at my sister and Jess. He was very happy, but not in a desperate way. Just a "OMG, it's the humans!" way. Soon after, he settled down and was a couch potato as per usual.

Then, at noon, I went out to get my relaxing peppermint sleepy pills. We started watching a video on a cruise like ours, but gave up after a while, as none of us were able to pay attention.

In the meantime, I booked excursions for the overnight San Francisco stop. We're going to the Japanese Tea Garden and Muir Woods. I'm looking forward to both. I don't really need to see Alcatraz, I don't think. We're going to get a 2 day hop on hop off pass, and take the tour of the city, while happily hopping off to grab our dim sum in Chinatown, and whatever else looks good. We're doing a whale watching trip in Santa Barbara. Santa Barbara is a really short port, only from 8am til 2:30, so we won't have a lot of time there. Maybe just enough to wander the port area.

Our other stop in Ensenada, Mexico, I don't know enough about yet to decide what to do. None of the tours really excited us in either place, so we'll probably see about taking the shuttle to the city center and just walk around and shop.

The next cruise is 541 days away, but I'm already looking. I have a lot of research to do. We start out in San Diego, so I'm looking at hotels and things to do during our two days there before the cruise, aside from the Zoo.

This time I'll pack lighter, since I didn't wear a lot of what I took. Some leggings and shorts and t-shirts are it. Maybe one fancy dress, and a couple of skorts, and one nice blouse. We have free laundry, so iI'm not worried about running out of clothes. We didn't take the pinnacle suite this time, but we are in a Neptune suite, which is just one step down. It still comes with a lot of the perks, like the Neptune Lounge and it's two concierge and light snacks throughout the day, complimentary appetizers each night and Club Orange for breakfast and dinner.

I plan to spend more time in Club Orange this go round. The specialty dining was amazing, but having tried them, I don't necessarily need to go back. I'm curious to see what is on the menu for main dining, because the two times we went for dinner, it was amazing. The Peruvian chicken from the first night remains my single favorite food, followed quickly by the Dutch Night's Hodgepodge Klapstuck, which was like a really good pot roast with veggies and gravy.

We ended up going with the quench package, which covers all non alcoholic drinks. We'll pay for our booze, but we didn't really drink enough to make it worth the money for the signature or elite packages. I think I had one drink a day most days, and two on the day we went to Morimoto, and the day we got mimosas with breakfast. And after Morimoto, I wobbled back to my room, drunk off my ass.

We also won't get the Thermal Spa, since we hardly used it. if we want to soak, we can get a day pass. Probably no massage, to avoid the hard sell at the end for products. We just went with it, and ended up with $500 of Elemis products.

I had so much fun with the Alaskan cruise. The memories that'll stick with me are Mendenhall Glacier, which was just awe inspiringly huge and thus vertigo inducing, the whale watching tour, where we cheered for that flash of whale tail, and the little tour we did in Ketchikan. I climbed rocks to stand in front of a raging waterfall, and saw a Sitka Deer, and saw the Totem park. But aside from those, I mostly enjoyed the ship. I loved coming back to our little suite at the end of a day of adventures, and relaxing on the verandah. I loved having coffee and pastries delivered every day. And I loved being able to sit at the dining room table and have our room service foor delivered.

I'll also remember the awesome staff that made the trip even more special. Our room stewards, Yusuf and Eko who made our room tidy and neat. Cipta, the waiter who remembered us and was just as sweet and chatty and lovely as he could be. Sheryl, one of the concierges in the lounge who was always there to help, Zam, our amazing photographer for our vow renewal, who made us laugh, and took amazing pictures, managing to get shots of both of us that we liked.

And of course, Rachel, the other concierge who literally walked us through our first cruise and made sure we got the most out of it. When we'd go to the lounge for food and a cappuccino, she would insist on getting our drinks, and carrying them to the table to make it easier for my sister an I, who were both using canes. Most telling, after we'd gotten off the ship, and were no longer her problem, she ran into us off the ship while we were waiting for our ride, and stopped to check on us and make sure we were okay.

She said we were easy to deal with, and very sweet and kind. I was pleased to hear it, because I never want to make someone's job harder. I'm pretty sure we over tipped, but that's fine. I'd rather be known as someone who overtips than that bitch who takes gratuities off their bill at the end of the cruise. They work super hard and deserve whatever they can get.

I got the survey from Holland America, and wrote glowing reviews. I honestly can't think of a single thing that I would have done differently. We had such an amazing time that I've run out of superlatives.

The vow renewal was another standout. I never thought I needed a traditional wedding, but apparently, I did, because this was amazing. Captain Paul and Jayme made it a day to remember.

A few of the photos, which I do not hate how I look in.

First up, the beginning, standing before the Captain.

The vows.

The cake cutting.

One of the pictures of me that I really like.

And last, the posed kiss.

With that, I think it's time to get myself together for a fun day sorting through roughly 600+ emails. Ugh. Everyone have a terrific Tuesday!

Worktrip to Australia! [Weeks 2&3]

May. 19th, 2026 12:08 am
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Little over a month ago I came back from my businesstrip and additional travel in Australia. I meant to follow up my first picspam sooner, but as per usual I got distracted by work (and fandom! I'm currently crazy about Heated Rivalry and there is a lot of meta out there to enjoy :-p)

Anyway, here I finally am again to continue with my travelreport! During the workweeks I mostly only make pictures of food, but there was also an evening we went looking for bats and an afternoon on a sightseeing train. In the weekend in between I traveled to Melbourne to meet up with fellow SPN fangirl [personal profile] majestic_duxk and on the Sunday I went on a boat tour with other delegates, so there are plenty of touristy photos as well :-D

Oh and on day two I got to wear my raincape for the first and last time this trip! There were a couple more days with rain (and even one massive thunderstorm), but I was indoors then. Overall the weather in Victoria was dry and a lot cooler than I expected, often low 20s Celcius.

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How cool is my colourful cape? :-D

Workweek 1: tech meeting & fruitbats on Wednesday evening! )

Saturday: Fangirlmeet-up Daytrip Melbourne )

Sunday: Riverboat tour & Aussie Beer Museum )

Workweek 2: tech workshop & a sightseeing tram on Tuesday afternoon! )

To be continued with a week in Perth, Western-Australia, where temperatures are a lot higher!

J.

Previous posts:
  • Day 1 & 2: flying to Sydney [LJ]
  • Day 3: Sydney Opera House [LJ]
  • Day 4: Ferry & Swimming with family [LJ]
  • Day 5: Flying to Victoria & Birdspotting [LJ]
  • Day 6: Australian Football in the MGC [LJ]
  • Day 7: Underground Goldmine [LJ]


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    Home again, home again.

    Today shall be a day of laundry and resting up and loving on the puppy, once we go get him at 7ish.

    We headed out around 6:15 for the airport. The shuttle was fine, and got us where we needed to be. Slowdown at security, as after clearing the i'd checkpoint, we went through the jankiest machine, which decided that the crotch of my pants was too loose, so obviously I had something in there. And also that Jess' shoes were a problem. Jess had to run their shoes through the scanner, and I (lucky me) had to get a full patdown. The TSA agent wasn't bad, and it was accomplished quickly, but wow. After they ascertained that I had nothing hanging out in my pants, it was a trip to gate N6. We stopped for breakfast at the pub, and I ordered a Cobb salad. It was very good, but enormous. I ate a good chunk, and there was probably enough left for a whole other salad.

    After a while, it was time to get on the plane. We had some turbulence, but not horrible. I felt bad, I had to pee like every 90min and since I was window seat, Jess had to get up. For once I slept a bit on the plane. It helped the flight seem much shorter for me. I've never slept on a plane before, so that was surprising.

    Finally, we landed, and headed to baggage claim. It took a little while to get our luggage, but eventually, we moseyed out to the curb to wait for our car. It arrived within minutes of my text, and we were on our way home. A $200 tip later, the driver was helping us bring our bags in, and we were back home to our apartment.

    Today shal be a liminal day, where none of us need to be at work, but it'll probably be a lot of work emptying suitcases and doing laundry. Tomorrow, it's back to the real world.

    It feels weird to be at home again. It seems so small and plain after spending so long with the glaciers and mountains as our cathedral.

    I only uploaded a couple of the pictures of our ceremony on the Vacation folder. but I now have the professional pictures, so I will put a few up. Also a picture of Maddie the cat who visited us in the Seattle hotel on day 11 of the trip.

    cut for lots of pictures of our vow renewal ceremony and some posed pictures from after the ceremony. And or course, kitty! )
    As you can see, it was SO much fun. I always said that I didn't need the whole over the top fussy wedding, but I loved this. We had a 30 minute meeting with the entertainment director, and he was off and running. I love what he came up with. I felt like a princess. I'm so grateful to everyone who made it happen, from the florist and staff down to Rachel our concierge, who used my phone to take pictures and videotape the event. And of course Jayme and Captain Paul for being there for our special day.

    The package that I purchased included a book, the pictures were laser printed on metallic paper, and they're beautiful.

    The thing about the ship is that there are photographers everywhere. We were photographed at two separate meals, plus as we got off in each port. Sadly, we did not notice this in Juneau, but got shots in Skagway and Ketchikan.





    Now that I'm back to reality, I feel like this trip changed me somehow. I'm not the same person who left 12 days ago. I learned the limits I could push my body to. (More than expected.) I learned that my asthma is not nearly as bad when I'm away from polution. I was barely using my inhaler at all, even with all the walking. We were flexible, and I got to do everything that I wanted to do. The scenery was magnificent, and the people were kind. The staff was the absolute best. I cannot imagine a better group of people to have taking care of you. Our concierge, Rachel, who is in the photos, putting on our boutonniere and corsage was just the best. She helped us so much, and made sure that we were where we needed to be when we needed to be there. We talked to her a lot. And whenever we went into the lounge, she would serve us, which I don't believe was in her job description, but it would have been multiple trips to carry things with the cane, so she just brought it to the table for us. There was our waiter, Cipvet who was excellent and made sure to say farewell as we came off the ship. There was so many more as well. I think, because we tipped well and often on everything, we quickly became favorites. Several of the waitstaff would stop us in the hall to check on us and see how we were doing. I appreciate every one of them.

    The suite was bonkers.

    Video tour of the suite here

    Video tour of our balcony here.

    It was way more than we needed, but it was awesome. I loved it so much and it was always nice to come home to. We had a standing order for pastries and coffee at 7am, which was lovely to have arrive. Thanks to our stewards, our room was constantly spotless, and we were kept with a steady supply of bottled water and sodas in our fridge. We spent so many hours on our balcony just watching the awe inspiring scenery slip by.

    Apparently in a few days, I'll get a survey, and I can't wait to fill it out and tell the company just how awesome their people are, and how much we enjoyed the trip.

    And now, I'm home with bilateral pissed off knees from all the walking, and sadly, I must get my own coffee and water. *sigh*

    And now, we shall start unpacking. Everyone have an excellent Monday!

    Day 11, Seattle to Baltimore to Home!

    May. 17th, 2026 03:09 am
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    Why yes, it is 3am in Seattle. No, I don't know why I'm up either. In just a few (okay 7) hours, we'll be winging our way towards home via Alaska Airlines. I'm not looking forward to the long flight, but I am ready to be home, so I'll deal.

    Yesterday, we sadly packed up everything and hopped off the boat at 8am. We had a minor freak out when they announced that you needed your key card and Jess realized that they'd packed theirs. So, a last trip down to the amazing concierge in the Neptune Lounge to have a new key printed. Within 10 minutes, Rachel had a new card, which she brought to our stateroom. We'd made arrangements to have a wheelchair for my sister, and seeing that we were ready, she called for it, and before you knew it, we were flying through the corridors of the Koningsdam, leaving the suite we'd called home for 7 days with Rachel in the lead, escorting us one last time. It was very sad. Before we knew it, we were off the boat, seeing a few familiar faces along the way. Everyone who had served us or helped us called out to us by name, and wished us safe journeys. Rachel gave everyone big hugs, and disappeared back into the ship, and the port authority took over. Another wheelchair and a porter to take our bags to the curb later, and we were waiting out front for our car. (Turned out that we should have gone to level 2 of the garage, but oh well. He came out front and we hopped in.) The ride from Vancouver to Seattle took roughly forever, including about 45 minutes in the line for immigration.

    Fortunately, once we got up there, it was super fast. I know Jess had been worried, but there were no hassles at all. The border agent was really nice and joking around with us. We only waited 45 minutes because we stopped at the duty free shop, and grabbed some stuff. If you spend $15, you can skip a good part of the line. Otherwise, we were looking at 70 minutes or more. The line was about a mile long.

    Finally, we pulled up to Cedarbrooke Lodge just outside of SeaTac. It's a really beautiful hotel. We grabbed food with minutes to spare, and the BIL headed out to make his Seattle Mariners game.

    Blessedly, they had one room ready for us, and another was ready soon after. While we were waiting for the second, we were sitting in the room, nibbling on ketchup chips (totally addictive) and some Flake Bars and Toblerone. I also grabbed a Canada Jersey, which is slightly tight across the boobs.

    Then, we had traffic slowdowns near Seattle, but eventually we got there. The staff was super sweet, and let us eat brunch, even though they closed in 10 minutes. It was delicious, and we unilaterally decided to come back for dinner.

    Then, we crashed for a bit, until I decided to go partake in one of their amenities: Free unlimited ice cream in the freezer. The brand was Snoqualmie, which is a local brand that you can't get outside of the PNW. It was Wild Blackberry and it was delicious. However, when I opened the door to go get it, there was a gorgeous black cat sauntering down the hall. I stared for a moment, and it took it as invitation, and strolled right in the room and jumped up on the bed for pets. Worried that someone had lost a cat, I called the front desk. They informed me that the cat's name was Maddie, and she lived in one of the houses near the grounds. Once in a while, she just decided to visit, and slipped in with someone. By that time, she was in BIL's suitcase purring and rolling around. My sister picked her up and she went limp and cuddled in for a few minutes before she demanded to be put down on the bed. Soon after management showed up and seemed shocked to have her on the bed. They called her name and she reluctantly departed with them, to be kicked out of the building, but not out of our hearts.

    Soon after, we went for dinner, which was excellent. We started with the house made focaccia (Jess) the jamon serrano with roasted grapes and popping balsamic boba (me) and the elderberry cured salmon with goat cheese (my sister). For our main course I had the seared scallops with risotto, my sister had lamb chops, and Jess had chicken. Unfortunately for Jess, someone stole their chicken off the sideboard, and they had to remake it. Totally not the waitress' fault, and we were totally cool about it. Once it did arrive, the chicken was excellent, and in the meantime, they gave them a bowl of their excellent purple yam soup. We were stuffed, but still had dessert. Jess got the creme brulee, and my sister and I split the very tasty banana bread pudding.

    After that, it was back to the room for naptime, as it had been a very long day.

    Today, we shall brave the fun that is airport security and a 5.5 hour flight. Then it's off to baggage claim, and finally home to collapse.

    Tomorrow, it'll be off to pick up a small puppy, and get yelled at. From all the pictures, he seems to be having a wonderful time without us. Lots of extra cuddle time, and the staff loves him. I might have to make a batch of his food tomorrow, I need to check the freezer when we get home.

    For now, I shall relax and then get myself together to get ready for our departure with our heavy ass luggage. Wondering if I'm going to end up paying an overweight fee for our luggage, but we'll see. I need to take all the tags off my suitcase, so that it doesn't get stuck on the conveyor belt, and I desperately need a shower.

    I believe I shall take that now, and get it out of the way. Everyone have the most outstanding day!

    such a smallBIG thing

    May. 17th, 2026 01:52 am
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    Megan is apparently not speaking to me. I don't know if it's for a limited time, or for the rest of time, or what. No idea. To know these things, she'd have to be asking me.

    According to Donnie, who said to me, "don't tell her I said anything, because she'd be SO MAD", Megan has issues with me going back years. Also, apparently, she now feels that Matthew and I took advantage of her. I feel like that's coaching from Donnie, because until about six months ago, Megan had never said, ever, that she felt like we were taking advantage. Not to me, not to Matthew, nothing.

    And now she's not speaking to me at all. The girl -- woman -- who used to say "I love you" every day when she left for work. Who would joke and laugh with me, and we'd wish each other a good night at bedtime. Now she can't get out of the room fast enough. In fact tonight, Matthew told me, Donnie called her (from the kitchen to their room), and he heard her say, "Kim's in the bathroom". And she popped out briefly, then back.

    And while I know I should initiate the conversation, I don't want to. I'm a punching bag for them when they get angry at me, and I'm not willing to do that anymore. Enough's enough. We expect them to leave by the end of June (and when June gets a bit closer, we're going to tell them this. At least that's the plan.).

    I'm going to miss them, sometimes. Megan lived with us for a decade, which is no small amount of time. My relationship with both of them (Donnie in particular, but both of them) is very complicated and complex. I'd love to have a relationship with them after they move out, but I'm not sure that's going to be possible.

    And in the meantime, Donnie's talking about the trailer they're moving in to -- both of them, still in the same bedroom, even though they're broken up -- and how two of her male friends, upon hearing they'd broken up, said they would move in, help her with rent and so on. So Donnie talks about how they'll have four contracts on the lease, with each of them paying a quarter of the expenses. And she says that unironically. Like it's perfectly okay to plan that, while still not realizing that that's what WE tried to do with them.

    End of June. I'm holding on to that, so very tightly.

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    Day 10, Vancouver and Seattle

    May. 16th, 2026 04:13 am
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    Our cruise is nearly completed. Even now, we're drawing closer to the Port of Vancouver, where they're going to make us get off this beautiful ship. From there, we'll be whisked down to Seattle, and tomorrow back home. I'm sad that it's ending, but happy to be heading home. I've missed my bed.

    Yesterday was a quiet chill day, as all the activity and excitement, and maybe a little jet lag had finally caught up with us. We got up and went to Club Orange for another excellent breakfast. I as usual, had the full English and made quite a dent in it. Then, it was off to an enrichment talk about the ship and what it takes to run it. It was fascinating. Then, we came back to the room for naptime for a couple of hours. Then, it was off to our last lunch onboard at the Grand Dutch Cafe. I had the triple berry pannekoek, which was a tasty little rolled crepe with strawberries, blueberries and raspberries. We also had their most excellent fries with mayo and a bossche bol, which is an enormous creampuff covered in dark chocolate. So tasty!

    After that, I picked up our pictures for the week, which are awesome. Then, we went back to the room for my naptime, while Jess watched Jurassic World Rebirth. Once I was again conscious, we decided to go to Tamarind for dinner, which is the Asian restaurant. It was very tasty, and our waitress was a total enabler, offering to bring us extra appetizers and main courses. I had a wok fried lobster, as well as the crispy duck, followed by a delicious passionfruit dessert.

    Then, it was back to the photo gallery, to pick up my sister's photos. Our photo album from the vow renewal was ready, so I picked that up as well, and we headed back to the room to crash for real.

    Now that we're speeding towards Vancouver, I have a moment to consider all the things we've seen and done this week. I think the things that will stick with me most of all is the Mendenhall Glacier, where I felt so small next to the majesty of nature and seeing that whale tail pop up as the whale we'd been watching dove deep, and the boat cheering in excitement.

    But maybe even more than that is the kindness of people. The other travelers were kind and generous with their knowledge and for first time cruisers, it was much appreciated. But more than that, the kindness of the crew. Everyone was amazing, from Captain Paul down to the stewards, to Zam, the photographer for our vow renewal, who was funny and took amazing photos, which I will share once we're home. But most of all, I appreciated Rachel, our concierge. She has been amazing. She's showed up everywhere and led us through everything. Without her, our vacation would be much less rich. Even today, she's going to come and walk us to the gangplank and help us off the ship. It's so much more than I could have imagined, and I appreciate every minute of it.

    All in all, I leave much poorer in money, but much richer in every other way.

    And now, since my coffee is coming and I need to pack my laptop, I will bid you all to have an excellent Saturday!

    GoFundMe

    May. 16th, 2026 01:51 am
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    Matthew made a GoFundMe for us. If you're interested, it's here: https://gofund.me/27478dd15
    If you can't donate, please consider sharing the link. Thanks :)

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    Prompt: Lotus Pier

    May. 15th, 2026 07:37 pm
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    This week's prompt is: Lotus Pier.

    You have until midnight your time on Friday, May 15, to answer this prompt. Please post your fills of the prompt as separate entries to the community (i.e. not replies to this entry), tagged with the prompt tag. You may post multiple standalone drabbles per entry in addition to drabble sequences and series.

    As a reminder, this community has no official presence elsewhere. You are encouraged to share the prompt on social media, if you so desire. It may take me a bit to create the AO3 collection, so please be patient.

    Also, I'm going to go ahead and drop a link to the prompt suggestions post here. New suggestions are always, always welcome.

    Day 9, in the Pacific ocean

    May. 15th, 2026 03:56 am
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    I am up early today, as for whatever reason, I just couldn't sleep any more. We're in that liminal space on the last day of the trip where we've completed all our port stops. We just have one more day until it's time to hop off and go back to real life. Boo.

    Nah, I have enjoyed this trip so much, but I'm about ready for it to be done. It's been amazing, and life changing and all the words, but I'm ready to be home and back in my bed. We're about to cross between the islands, so we might have some rough sailing today. We're going to do all the little things that we've enjoyed, hitting all the food places one last time. I think we're talking about Club Orange for breakfast, then the Grand Dutch Cafe for lunch (Best fries on the ship, maybe best fries anywhere) then there's Cake Me Away in the Lido, and then poutine bar in the Lido for snack, then pizza for late snack. Little bites all the way.

    Tomorrow, we shall sadly disembark, leaving with so many amazing memories and stories and pictures. But for today, one last day of fun.

    Yesterday seemed like it might be stressful, but ended up being a lot of fun. We got up early, and headed to breakfast at Club Orange. It was very lovely and everyone was happy to see us, and welcomed us by name, asking where we'd been. Then we went back to the room and relaxed until we got into port. As usual, the Alaska Scenery was beautiful, and we sat on the deck for awhile and enjoyed the view.

    Unfortunately, we got into dock a bit late, and couldn't make our scheduled crab feast. Honestly, it was probably the best thing to happen to us. As we were getting off the boat, there was a bus, with a hand written sign advertising tours. It was definitely a fly by night thing, but, and this is a big butt, they offered to drop us off at the restaurant we'd chosen at the end of the tour. Sold. It was $59/person, cash. Fortunately, we had enough cash, and hopped on. Good choice, me.

    The tour ended up being a lot of fun. We drove out to a bear watching point and saw no bears, but a cute little deer. Then, we went to this beautiful waterfall that you could climb up some easy rocks and get a good view and some pictures.



    We stayed there for a little while, and then moved on to the Saxman Village Totem park, where we marveled at the amazing work of the tribe's master carver, which is a lifetime elected position.

    The totems were gorgeous and the colors amazing. The pigments are made by mixing natural colors with salmon egg oil and staining, and will stay vibrant for decades. Here, have a frog that's over 30 years old



    After that, we drove to the Salmon Laddder that they've built to help the salmon get upstream to spawn. We were too early in the year for the salmon run, but it was still cool as shit to see.

    We actually learned a lot about salmon, who have one of the saddest life cycles ever, yet are so important to the Alaskan ecosystem and to the various native tribes like the Tlingit as well as the rest of the peoples.

    Then, we headed down to the restaurant, and we had some really good fish and some okay crabs.



    This is Jess' meal, which is cod, salmon and halibut. I had a halibut rice bowl that I forgot to take a picture of. It was so fucking good. The halibut was seasoned perfectly, and fried up nice, then they put this sweet and slightly spicy sauce on it. I loved it, and I would have attempted to eat a second one if I could have.

    Then, it was up to Creek Street, formerly the Ketchikan red light district for shopping





    We dropped a lot of money on more souvenirs and a suitcase to get them home in. I got myself an opal studded whale tail and a matching whale ring. Two out of the four places we got our items from had the progress pride flag in the window, which we thanked the owners for. I was happy to drop an inordinate amount of money there. Then, exhausted, we took a cab back to the ship, and headed up to the suite to relax for an hour until our appointments.

    First up, we headed down to view our vow renewal pictures.

    We sat down and they played us a slideshow of our pictures, set to music. It made me choke up a little.

    We were an easy sell, but the photos were flat out amazing. I don't know how they did it, but they made me look beautiful. There's one picture of me from the studio session that I really liked. And a couple really good ones of Jess. Once we get the digital versions tomorrow, I'll post some of them in a locked post for you all to see.

    We ended up buying a package that will give us some prints, as well as a photo book, all the digial pictures, and the slideshow. It was truly expensive as hell, but still less than your standard wedding photographer. The photos will be laser printed on a metallic paper, and it makes the colors really pop.

    Then, we went up to book our next cruise. After this amazing week, we decided to skip Hawaii next year, and book another cruise. This one goes along the Pacific coastline, from San Diego to Ensenada, Mexico, then up to San Francisco, California, where we'll stay for two full days. Then, it'll be down to Santa Barbara, and then back to San Diego. It's not til November, so I'll have plenty of time to accumulate PTO for it. Best of all, it's on the same ship we're on now.

    We decided to step our cabin down one class, as this would be way too much for just the two of us. Instead, we're in a Neptune Suite, which still has access to the lounge and concierge, but it a bit less expensive.

    After that, we had a lovely Dutch dinner in the Club Orange Dining room, and debated on what to do next. Ultimately, we skipped the orange party and just went to bed early. (Thus why I was up at 4:20am PST.) On our way up, our concierge caught us with our portrait from our ceremony. It's in a folder that includes the vows, which I will post when we get home and unpack. They were so beautiful, and I'm glad we got a copy of them.

    Today, we shall mostly relax and (sob) pack to go home.

    This has been the most amazing, magical trip. We had a bit of rain in Juneau (20 minutes of a light mist) and some rain during the tour yesterday, but otherwise, it has been perfect weather.

    In the Tlingit culture, beavers symbolize prosperity, so here is a beaver totem. May it bring us all the good things this year.



    Everyone have the very best Friday!
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    (FOB lyric, but this post isn't about them.)

    tl;dr: my psyche is a wonderland of land mines, thank goodness I had a cathartic concert to go to after therapy.

    Tuesday night was the Florence + the Machine concert, which was a hugely cathartic event that I absolutely needed. On the way home from the show it dawned on me that in some ways FOR ME, F+tM are more "grown-up" catharsis music that better fills the Emilie Autumn slot. EA is (apparently) the music of "welp, time to fall apart for a bit", whereas F+tM are "I feel a little fragile and stressed, but not quite Pete Wentz lyrics levels". 

    Anyhoodle, I learned that the songs "Everybody Scream", "Sympathy Magic", and "Free" in concert make me cry. I expected that of the first two, but not of Free. Links to lyrics provided in case folks want to guess which parts hit me hard, because my psyche is not subtle.

    One of the reasons that I absolutely needed the catharsis: Tuesday is therapy day, which I remembered two minutes before my appointment. My awesome therapist and I were talking about the deep rooted belief from my childhood in which I need to do everything perfectly for everyone, because that's how I'm worthy of affection and love. Y'know, a normal way of thinking. This somehow led to me telling her some of the family jokes from my childhood: I was picked up from the second-hand children's store but they lost the receipt and couldn't return me; how when I was around eleven Dad joked that one of his very rich Arab customers wanted to buy me as a bride but Dad was holding out for more camels; and the classic I didn't know my real middle name until I applied for my driver's permit because my parents committed to the bit of substituting "Veg-o-Matic" for my real middle name.

    My therapist stared at me in a horrified manner, and then said, "Those aren't funny". Upon discussion and deep reflection, I agree, because the first two reinforced that programming of I need to be useful and helpful to be loved, and the third kinda-sorta did the same because 1) it was a "joke" at the expense of who I thought I was, and 2) saying my middle name was the name of an appliance? See the first two jokes. 

    My therapist agreed that my parents weren't deliberately doing those things, that they did think they were jokes, and would be upset if they realized the cumulative effect they had on me. But damn, that was a difficult session. No wonder I cried at "I find no worthiness in virtue / I no longer try to be good / they didn't keep me safe / like you told me that it would".
     

    Day 8, Ketchikan

    May. 14th, 2026 06:02 am
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    Hello from the misty fjords outside of Ketchikan, Alaska! We are a little ways away, as we do not get in until about 11am. It's probably going to be a rainy day, but I'm a member of the don't care club. I'm going to be in Ketchikan! This may/may not be a tender port. That means if all the docks are full, we may use the lifeboats to get to shore. Then, when another boat leaves, our ship will pull in, and we'll be able to just walk back on. Not looking forward to the tendering, but we'll deal.

    We've got a crab feast at noon, which is all you can eat Dungeness crabs, yum. Then we have nothing except walking around the town to get souvenirs.

    This morning, I'm planning to grab breakfast, and maybe run to the shops to see if they sell suitcases. We've bought so much shit that we need a little more room to pack it all. Not a big one, just a wee one for bits and bobs. Either Jess or my sister will pack their fanny pack in their personal item, and then use that as a carry on. It'll be great.

    We're back on the boat a bit early, as we have two appointments, but more on that later.

    Yesterday was amazing. It was glacier day, as we went up Endicott Arm to get to the Dawes Glacier.

    First up, when we went onto the veranda, there was a noticeable chill in the air. The mountains had become more jagged.



    Here and there the rock was dotted with these lovely little waterfalls.



    Just before 11, there was a knock at our door, bringing us steaming Holland America Mugs of hot cocoa. It was really good cocoa and the mug is ours to keep. I will be using mine for coffee. It holds the heat really well, and will be a reminder of this trip

    Then, suddenly, there it was, the Dawes Glacier in all it's majestic beauty. We had a prime spot, and once in place, the captain began slowly spinning the boat in a circle, giving everyone a view. But as always, Pinnacle Suite got first look. Well, our side of the boat at least.

    It was huge and beautiful and amazing, and every other adjective I can't think of. It was also cold as hell. Even from .5 miles away, you could feel the cold radiating from it. We snapped so many pictures and then just stood there and marveled.







    None of those really do it justice. It was so immense.

    After we bid farewell to Dawes, we headed down for lunch at the main dining room. Good choice me. The food was amazing, and as always they got us a seat by the window, so we could watch the snow topped mountains slip past.

    I had a lovely salad topped with Dungeness crab meat, which was the highlight. It was so fresh. It was obvious that they had picked up the crab either in Juneau or Skagway. After that, we did some relaxing until tea came at 3. Tea was as always lovely. After that, we got ourselves prettied up for our renewal of vows.

    Our concierge Rachel came to the suite promptly at 4:30am and walked us down to the art gallery where we could wait for them to be ready for us. Everyone we came in contact with seemed really excited for us to do this. Apparently they don't get many and they love doing them.

    Before long, they brought me a corsage and Jess a boutonniere, which made them happy. The boutonniere was a real bitch to get on, but eventually it was mostly in place. Then, it was time for the ceremony. We met Captain Paul Adams, who is the master of the Koningsdam. He was lovely, and very intense. When you're his focus, you are the only one in the world for that moment.

    The venue, which two days before was a tiny, kind of drab meeting room had been transformed into a fantasy wonderland.



    Jess and I walked down the aisle, and Captain Paul did a short ceremony that was just lovely. The vows we repeated were touching and Jess and I both teared up saying them. Afterwards, we posed for pictures with everyone. Captain Paul, and Jayme our cruise director, My sister and brother in law, everyone.



    There were a variety of appetizers, and we cut the cake. (More pictures, oh boy!)

    A word about this cake. It is fucking enormous. When they said cake, I was thinking a little four inch cake. No, it was a ten inch monstrosity. It's so delicious, but oh lord, we have a lot of cake.

    The whole time, Rachel, our concierge was right there with my phone, taking pictures and videos for us to remember the day.

    After that, we headed over to a studio for, you guessed it, more photos. These were posed, and the photographer was amazing, and also a loon. We did some with my sister, a bunch of poses together and then a few of each of us solo. It was surreal, but a lot of fun.

    Then, we hit the bar and got ourselves a smoked old fashioned. It was very yum, and I really enjoyed it. It was a fairly good amount of liquor and I was feeling it a touch at the end.

    Then, it was back to the room for a bit, where the appetizers and cake had been magically transported. We nibbled a few appetizers, and relaxed until it was time to head up to Morimoto by Sea, which is the Iron Chef's collaboration with Holland America.

    The food was magnificent. We started with the sushi platter, which had some amazing and fresh fish. After that came shrimp 3 ways. there was panko crusted with tartar sauce, panko crusted with a spicy gochujang sauce, and then teriyaki with a tonkatsu sauce. At the end of the meal they brought us another cake with Happy Anniversary on it. Not technically correct, but very sweet. Of course, more fucking cake.



    Then, they brought out our actual desserts, which was a chocolate sphere, filled with marshmallow and chocolate sorbet. We also had gotten cocktails, which might have been a mistake on top of the Old Fashioned. We were all pretty drunk by the end of the meal.

    When we got back to the room, our bedroom was decorated with balloons and a Congratulations sign and a big towel animal of two swans kissing.



    It was the perfect end to a perfect day.

    Like I said before, I really feel like this trip has changed me. I see why Alaskan cruises are so popular, and I see why people cruise for their vacations almost exclusively. The ships are amazing. Everything you could ever want at your fingertips all the time. Holland America has definitely been a good cruise line for us. It's not a party boat, just very chill and a bit refined, and just relaxing. The suite has been amazing. (Check our my Google photo album for a tour of the suite.
    It's utterly ridiculous and I adore it.

    Today, we have two meetings after Ketchikan. First is to look at our wedding pictures and see what we want to buy. Second is to meet with cruise consultants and see what kind of deal they can get us for next year. After this, we've decided that we want to do it again. This time, we'll do the California Coast, which is out of San Diego. It's another 7 day, on the same ship, which I now affectionately consider "our" ship.

    So, instead of Hawaii, where the room would cost half as much as the cruise, we'll have everything catered to us, and save on food, since it all will be provided. It's also in November, so I'll have a bit more time to save up on PTO.

    That's important, because I think when we get back I am going to go to the ortho and get my knee looked at. It hasn't slowed me down, but it has hurt quite a bit, and I'd like to fix that if possible.

    Tomorrow shall be our last day at sea, and then back to reality on Saturday. We'll head down to Seattle and fly home on Sunday. It's been so amazing that I really don't want it to end. But alas, all good things.

    I go home with a boatload of memories, and SO many pictures and souvenirs. I'm so glad we took a step out of our comfort zone and did this.

    And now, I shall get dressed and ready to face the day. The guys we made friends with are coming over at 10:30 for cake. (You will eat some of this freaking cake. I might grab breakfast before then.

    Everyone have an outstanding Thursday!

    I am asking for help with my rent

    May. 14th, 2026 05:15 am
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    Some of you got this as an email, but things are happening now that are making it even more urgent.

    Our rent payment for May bounced. I need $1,146 as soon as possible. We got our "seven day letter" on the 10th. Well, I got an email copy of it. The actual letter hasn't arrived yet, go figure. I spent a good chunk of my day yesterday at the Helping Hand of Hope, applying for emergency rental assistance. They can't grant me anything until they've spoken with my property management company. The woman Matthew and I met with made the call to LREI while we were in her office. She asked on the message for them to call her back by 3:30. That she can't do anything for me, until she talks to them. She said she would call us to let us know how much they could give us, but she didn't call. I have no idea if we'll still get any help from them, because of it taking so long.

    Now for the why. I don't know for sure, won't know until Matthew starts therapy and gets officially diagnosed. But I'm pretty sure he has a sex addiction. Porn, sex, all of it. It's been hovering there, in the background, for a while, slowly escalating. Well, he hit a new low. High. Something. And he ran through a pretty impressive amount of money in the first week of this month. I don't know how much, exactly, but for sure over $700. Which is a staggering amount of money, truly.

    Matthew will start therapy within a week. We started the paperwork tonight (Tuesday night), and then I hit a snag with the signing box (naturally), so now we have to wait until morning to call them to figure it out. If you want to check it out, it's www.astrabh.com. I'm going to start therapy with them as well. I need to sit in on some of Matthew's sessions, probably, but I need it for my own stuff. I could stay with Rhonda, but she only sees patients twice a week. Plus, Rhonda is safe and comfortable. If I'm ever going to be able to tell my son NO, or learn how to set boundaries, and other healthy behaviors, I need someone who isn't safe or comfortable.

    Anyway. What I owe breaks down to this:

    Rent: $1,010
    Bounce Fee: $35
    Late Fee: $101

    If there's any chance anyone can help me out, I would be beyond grateful. I applied for a loan, but I don't know that I'll get approved (I was turned down for a "pre-approved" thing, and am waiting on a phone call from a loan specialist). I don't know if my Mom or sister can help us this time. (And the update on that is no, they won't.) I'm going to try the Salvation Army, as well, but I'm not holding out a lot of hope here. If you can't, I understand that. Keep us in your thoughts, or send positive energy. It's all appreciated.

    If you can help, send it to my Paypal (paypal.me/kimandmattg6794). I've taken the card away from Matthew -- all of the cards -- so you don't need to worry about that.

    I know I've asked for help a lot. I'm really hoping that we can get on our feet and I won't need to ask for anything from anyone, and in fact could maybe help others, at some point. But right now, I pretty desperately need help. Not just for the rent, though that's the critical issue, but for June as well. Because, in trying to to cover other things, I've overdrawn my checking account by $1300. That's all of the money I get for the month. Once we pay rent for June, I'll have $217 to get me through the month.

    Please help, if you can. Feel free to share this post, or link to it. Anything you think might help.

    Thank you,

    Kim

    x-posted to Livejournal and Dreamwidth; read/comment where you prefer.
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    It is thought-provoking, but also kind of a brain-buster, too. It also kind of reminds me of those Clinton-era jokes about not knowing what "is" is.(Apparently, philosophy shares that trait with the law)
    I wanted a challenge, but maybe this one was a little tough, as it feels like reading from translation a great deal of the time...maybe if I'd taken a class with it I wouldn't feel quite so at sea.I'll hang in for a little while, though.
    Otherwise, my doctor thinks my vital signs are great--wish that meant I felt more vital and alive, and my boss keeps begging me to get on the phones again and I'm kind of hiding out from it for no really good reason.
    It's just that...he just gets me all fired up and once I get down to it, there's no point.I'm calling machines to invite people to the same stuff we always have.(And something about talking to a near-stranger's AI assistant SERIOUSLY chaps my ass for some reason and puts me into Pesci vibes."I'm a clown...you're too *important* to talk to the likes of me." Argh...why it feels so much different than a machine, I'm not sure, except that a recorder can't pause for the whole "I'm not here," thing, right? a fucking blender can put me on-hold...damn, the future is awesome. And, you know, I've only gotten paid for campaign work a handful of times, so, you know, I'm working for passion and mission, mostly(and the vanishingly small possibility that my life might improve one day) so without it, I've smashed my ear and wasted an hour. So I went to M. last month and was like "If you don't need me anymore, just tell me, I get it. You don't have to Make Me Feel Useful, in fact I'll hate it if I catch you doing that(Long story, but voter contact is getting more automated and so I can't keep up with the most exciting stuff anymore. Boo!) So it kind of sucked when he responded with "You've earned the right to step away(sic) if you want." Which, like, okay, but I heard it like a single mom hears that the kids just love hanging out with Tiffany from the typing pool.
    I wanted him to tell me I was too great to lose, but he also, like a lot people thinks I'm delicate.So every complaint I have ends up with "your health comes first," and all that, which probably makes him a great Real Boss to the organizers he's training and such, but is not, at least not entirely, on-topic for me.
    Also, I wish something great would come into my life so "stepping away" wouldn't feel like "being a chickenshit" but I guess after twenty years being a little bored is to be expected?

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