I don't know what to do with this

[fufaraw]

This never happens.

I'm a linear person. I finish one thing before I start another, I put the thing which I'm using away where it belongs before I start another project. I never lay it down somewhere random, because I know from experience the minute I do it's lost and I'll never see it again. Don't borrow my scissors if you don't want me hovering until you're finished with them and return them.

I've actively cultivated an compulsion to stay on track because I can't function in the world, otherwise. My ADD makes chaos of everything if I don't methodically go from one step to the next. Don't stop me in the middle, I have to start over again if I lose my place.

So, I have an idea, and I work on that idea until it's done. I've been focused on BB for a while, and it's finally riding in my forebrain where I'm seeing through the characters' eyes and hearing their voices and imagining dialog in my head while I go about real world stuff. As is usual, for me.

But--and here's the strange part I'm not sure how to handle--I've also got a recurring scene in my head of a Hawaii beach with Jared in trunks and a bare back, lusting after his husband. And another scene of Jared stomping in from school, mad because he's having to keep from tearing the class bully literally apart. And Jensen giving him a chair to mend.

I'm not used to juggling. This is strange.

Comments

[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Oh boy, I hesitate to encourage you but those little ideas sometimes grow into wonderful things. I can't write multiple stories like I used to so now I just keep a folder with these little snippets that hit me in the shower. Sometimes they grow up into full stories, sometimes not, but they're not completely lost. :)

[fufaraw]

Yes! I've made notes. I haven't quite let myself actually write anything yet, though. I need to wrangle BB before I can devote time to anything else. But I have folders into which I can stuff ideas, which is more than I usually do.

They're just sitting there, waving at me, making come-hither eyes!